My life Story Judge if you must (Post 4)

Life is a crazy place to be at. & as we grow we see it is more and more difficult.
My life is un even. People judge, hate, and gossip about me and they do not know any thing about me... which makes me even more mad.
I write this blog for a way of coping life, and m lessons in life. I write this blog to help my writing, reading, and grammar. And for most, I write this blog for you readers to hear me out, and understand my life, and my misery, or share my happiness.
Thats all I ask for... Nothing else.
People hate me for being truthful and honest, but I have good reason. I rather tell you the truth, rather than you get what you wanna hear. You ask for the truth, you get it!
Another thing that bugs me is how people think my life is perfect. Its not!!!!
Since 9th grade I have struggling with my weight and gained over 80 pounds through out my highschool career. No im not proud, i wish i wasnt this ugly, and fat. I try to lose weight to no results. I plan one day to get surgery to remove the nasty assets on my skin.
People think Im fun, loud, crazy, annoying, ugly, fat, slutty, shitty, mean, hyper... And the list goes on. But no one knows the real me. I sometimes just wanna climb into a whole, so I can escape the rest of the world and run free. No problem, no hassle.
So for all the haters out there, get a life.
Hurting others wont make you feel better, trust me.
Bullying needs to stop. 
I would know, I am bullied.
xoxo
Eli