Yes, yes it has been a while. But when I am not writing in this boring blog, I am trying to live life, without making any big mistakes.
What do normal people do on a Saturday? Wait, let me rephrase that, what do normal teenagers do on Saturday? And a nice and sunny one too?
Maybe hit the mall? or chill at besties house but me, unlike most teenagers, am stuck at work. Since 330 am. I got off of work yesterday at 12:30 am and had to go back in. Right now, its nap time.
But some kids dont sleep.... And by some I mean Desean. He is a 6 year old boy who thinks he can control everything. But he knows he cant. Because when he challenges me, he always loses. His mother is abusive so his aunty took him in, and CPS makes sure that no one hurts or harms him. And because of his past, his attitude is always reflected.
I mean just two days ago he bite a four year old boy! For a toy!!!!
kids are funny, and all, but should obviously know better then bite a friend.
each day I feel as if he quizzes me, or each minute. Because he wants to know what he can or cannot get away with. Sadly I am not the type of teacher to be all lovey dovey (well yes I am), but I am very strict (not). I want kids to have fun but be reasonable about it!.
is that so hard to ask for?
Besides work, I have missed a lot of school, and that is a bad thing because well... I want to graduate and all but somethings are more important than others. You know?
I mean whats the point of school if your re learning the darn past? I mean I get it... anything new??? And in all honestness, I dont have many friends so why even bother. Plus, there is no cute guys in school. the ones i like are taken or gay.
Is something wrong with me?
One day, I'll be happy Elizabet, from that one school.
And people would be like, wow, you look nice and shit.
I would be like, I knows.
well I have to go, nap time is always a drag but its my job.
love you guys.
xoxo
Eli
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Thursday, April 4, 2013
April Showers Bring May Flowers? Post 16
I know I havent written much about anything really. But sometimes I come here and just stare at the blankness of the page. Moreover, I dont have much to write about. If I had a laptop or computer with Wifi access in my house the story of my life would have never stop recieving posts!
its my senior year. 55 more days until I graduate and still I feel as if everything is topsie-turnvie. Old saying has a lot of meaning towards it. I havent been in school for 2 weeks and this week I finally came back. Being sick is not joke and people need to understand that I didnt come just cause I didnt want to, but mainly because I was sick and ill.
As a senior at my school, my very small charter school, life is kinda difficult. As a senior you have triple the work and pressure to make sure you do in fact graduate. Graduation is my motivation.
My school never had prom, but this year decided a prom was needed. Great, now I can go alone to prom or stay home like a sucker and save $50! But then, in the future, I know I will regret it. Because prom is the American pastime kinda thing. And growing up I already experienced all the hate towards me and my family. it sucks knowing no body likes you or just wants to hook up with you.
So goal, for me, is to find a date.
Not one that uses me for money, or just wants to get into the junior/senior prom thing. no, someone who likes me for me. And surprises me with tickets? Haha, a girl can dream.
Speaking of senior year. its official. My senior class is going to Six Flags for our trip. Im proud we raised all the money we needed. It feels good to know you succeeded with a goal.
Goals are an important thing or aspect in my life because 1) they make you work extra hard for something & 2) to keep telling yourself nt to give up.
I dont know how Im going to make out this year. Or finish it. But all I know, with the help of this diary entry blog is I somehow will.
xoxo
Eli
its my senior year. 55 more days until I graduate and still I feel as if everything is topsie-turnvie. Old saying has a lot of meaning towards it. I havent been in school for 2 weeks and this week I finally came back. Being sick is not joke and people need to understand that I didnt come just cause I didnt want to, but mainly because I was sick and ill.
As a senior at my school, my very small charter school, life is kinda difficult. As a senior you have triple the work and pressure to make sure you do in fact graduate. Graduation is my motivation.
My school never had prom, but this year decided a prom was needed. Great, now I can go alone to prom or stay home like a sucker and save $50! But then, in the future, I know I will regret it. Because prom is the American pastime kinda thing. And growing up I already experienced all the hate towards me and my family. it sucks knowing no body likes you or just wants to hook up with you.
So goal, for me, is to find a date.
Not one that uses me for money, or just wants to get into the junior/senior prom thing. no, someone who likes me for me. And surprises me with tickets? Haha, a girl can dream.
Speaking of senior year. its official. My senior class is going to Six Flags for our trip. Im proud we raised all the money we needed. It feels good to know you succeeded with a goal.
Goals are an important thing or aspect in my life because 1) they make you work extra hard for something & 2) to keep telling yourself nt to give up.
I dont know how Im going to make out this year. Or finish it. But all I know, with the help of this diary entry blog is I somehow will.
xoxo
Eli
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